No SHIT Sherlock
Written at 3:35 p.m. on 2006-01-18
Well it seems things are going to work out with Timmy after all. I am sure I'll be on a choker leash for a while- but whatever. I would have been really pissed if he broke up with me over hear-say shit.
I mean- Ok I wasn't exactly "lady-like" at the bar, but when am I ever lady-like. Ok ok- So I should not have taken "sexy Pics" with Teresa cause she wanted some new pics of us. It was wrong of me and now knowing how I come off to other people- really kinda blows my mind away. I mean for one- he doesn't know what I am like. I am out-spoken and loud and mildly wild. When I am around Timmy's family- I mind my P's and Q's. Whatever those are- But you know I am on my best behavior. Its alot different to them when I am out with my friends.
But yeah- I would have been mad as hell if he wanted to break it off with me over this piddly shit. He's hung out with his ex girlfriend (b/c she was with one of his friends- supposidly) and he's stayed out till 6am (supposidly at the hospital cause his friend Wayne just had a baby- but I don't think they'd let the Daddy along with his buddies in the hospital at 3am, but what the fuck ever) and he lied to me when we first started dating- But that was to cover up some drug shit he knew I didn't like. But still- I have been trying to build up my trust for him since all this and he was on the phone laying down the line last night to me. How I can't hang out with so and so which I understand cause I don't do anything but get in trouble with them anyways- But I can't go to the bar at all unless I am with him (fine by me- I just don't like to be told that- some sort of ranking issue I have I guess) and so on. Well I am gonna lay down the line to him.
All he expects from me will be expected from him. We'll see how he deals with that. I mean he's seriously treating this as if I cheated on him and when I said that to him he's like well I don't know..... Well U know what if you don't know don't fuckin be with me.
I mean really- I love him but I am not allowing him to drive himself or myself crazy with this kinda shit. Cheating...bla bla....all over people....why did it take you 20 min tog et home instead of 15? That kinda shit. Been there done that. Forget it.
So he needs to watch what he is saying cause as much as I wanna be with him I'll be the first to say fuck it- cause I can't go thru this kinda shit anymore. Not with some one else.
Ya feel me?
Jamie
